Fight The Blues - Utada Hikaru

We fight the blues
調子の悪いときは深呼吸
堪えた涙は僕の一部

In Memoriam

Awkward gestures, weird faces, missed notes, less than perfect vocals.

Insecurities.

Pretty much the reason why I hardly ever post anything of myself singing, videos or audios, despite the fact that I can't get through a day without singing a song or two. No, it's not stage fright, I don't think. I reserve my so-called performances to the people I trust will not judge me, or to myself in the confines of a room or an open field when I think I'm alone. I oblige friends once in a while, as a way of actually trying to get out of this comfort zone of solitary singing.

This was last August. Oz recorded this, and at the time I wasn't aware, so I was quite surprised to have it seen posted on Facebook. I took down the link. I'm sorry Oz, but I do thank you for the video.

After brushing this off as a video I will only keep to myself, I decide to share it now, with you, whoever you are reading this. Should you find fault in it, then I'll have to accept that I can't please you. I wasn't singing it for you anyway.

That night, I wanted to go to Bicol. Circumstances told me it was easier for me to stay.

Tonight, I regret that decision. I'm really sorry I wasn't there.

As I was singing this, two great men and an amazing woman were in mind. To the gents, I miss and love you both. I'm sorry I wasn't there. This one's for you. 

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