Today is a strange day. How is it possible that I feel everything and nothing at the same time? The day started out average enough, but the longer it went the sadder I felt. I've long made the decision to never suppress my emotions. I shall let my myself feel them, experience them as they come. But today I wonder if it came on it own or I beckoned for it to come. Either way, I welcomed it.
Despite having many friends I can talk to, and who I know care for me, why is does it seem difficult to find comfort from someone? Is this loneliness? Some people will probably tell me I'm too independent and I should open myself up to pursue romantic relationships. But it's not romance I crave. It's mere connection, with someone, anyone, I can be vulnerable with. I guess maybe I'm tired of having to be strong and unwavering all the time. Always the one who is patient and understanding. The level-headed unemotional one. I don't know who to turn to. To God? Of course. If anything, these are the times when we have long one-on-one conversations. The answer I always receive has always been to remain steadfast.
And I have. To the best of my ability. I have long since allowed fate to do what it wills to do. I have become comfortably numb. Or so I thought. If I actually still feel the sadness, I guess I'm not completely numb just yet.
No, you don't wanna give me any reasons Show me what to do, I'll keep it secret We can't hide the feelings in between us Just you and me, I'll never leave
It's really hard for me to categorize everything that interests me, especially in music since there's hardly anything I'm not willing to try and listen to. For as long as my ears don't deem a sound as noise, I'll take it.
Songs I feature in my blog may seem a bit dated. I realize that each day, I discover and "recover" old songs more than new ones. In fact, I hardly know what's in the charts today.
I hope that by this blog, I can help people discover the varied music of the world! [05.12.2006]
